♥ Height: 167cm
♥ Weight: 44kg
♥ D.O.B: 13th May 1987
♥ Status: Married
♥ Chongfu Pri Sch/PHS/NYP-SIT
♥ Email: luvhurt5@hotmail.com

About Me

♥ My 2 darlings & my dear to be happy & healthy everyday

Wishes

♥ My Dear
♥ My 2 Darlings - Cookie & Miki
♥ Hello Kitty/Charmmy Kitty
♥ Precious Moments
♥ Jigsaw Puzzles
♥ Watching TV Shows
♥ Eating
♥ Sleeping
♥ Spicy Food
♥ Soup
♥ Pasta

Loves

♥ Animal Abusers
♥ Smokers
♥ Cockroaches
♥ Clubbing
♥ Being Compared
♥ Green Tea
♥ Pork/Mutton/Beef/Salmon

Dislikes

History


Monday, July 30, 2007

Mathematical Proof‎

What makes up 100% in life?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?
Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?
We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%.
How about achieving 103%?


Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 2122 23 24 25 26

Then:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

And,
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far ass kissing will take you
A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 127%

Thus, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that, while Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, Bullshit and Ass Kissing will put you over the top!!

i will never let you go;

12:05 PM





Thursday, July 26, 2007

Today's condition

Today's condition. The blood had dried up but sum pus has appeared. Hopefully tml will be betta so that i dont nd 2 go c doc again. The tot of having to stagger dwn the stairs n dragged my foot to the clinic n at the meantime being stared by so many eyes, made mi so reluctant to go dwn. I felt so uneasy with so many pairs of eyes lookin at my leg. I rmb on mon, while i was going hm aft seeing my doc, there's so many pairs of curious eyes lookin at mi, sum will ask my mum wat happened while sum will jus keep looking. Haiz~ I myself already dun feel gd abt it, y cant they jus spare mi. Wan ask wat happened, dun ask in my presence.

Everytime i tink of my leg, i cant help crying. Esp at nite, when i'm alone in my rm, tears jus rolled dwn my cheeks. Sumtimes the pain jus gt so intense bt there's nth i can do. I can onli assure myself to faster slp n tml will b betta. Now i even nd 2 rely on slping pills 2 slp. I tried 2 slp w/o slping pills last nite, bt i cant hav a nice slp. I kept waking up thruout the nite cos of the uncomfortable slping position. Haiz~ I reali nd a gd slp. Hope my wound will heal asap.

Here's the scratches frm the cat. Becoming more obvious now.

Here's the part the cat bite. There r actually holes made frm the cat's teeth. But cos now the blood has clot so cant reali c them.


The most gross part. The wound at the back of the leg. Its jus a scratch bt the scratch is deep.









i will never let you go;

4:34 PM





Tuesday, July 24, 2007

If onli this was jus a terrible nitemare...

Ytd was the worst day in my 20yrs n 2 mths of life. Till nw i still tink its a nitemare..... How i wish it is.... But nw I can only say i'm just too unlucky.... real unlucky..... Dont understand y heaven plan this part for mi......

The incident took place at ard 5 plus. Venue is 2 blks away from mine.

So this was what happened. As cookie didnt pass motion in the morn, he kept farting in my rm so at ard 5 lidat i decided 2 bring him go dwn for a walk. Cos i'm afraid he wun wan 2 eat his dinner if he nv pass motion. So as usual mum brought miki dwn while i brought cookie. And as usual i will let cookie lead the way. But tis time round, he happened 2 want walk the other way so i let him.

At this pt of time, i happened 2 c an uncle duno communicating wif a cat or a dog. But i 1st tink tat it could b a dog. So while cookie walked forward, i tried 2 peep over the walls n c if its a dog or a cat. And hu noes, the moment i saw tat its a stray cat, it saw cookie too. Tat cat started 2 approached us, targetting cookie. And cookie nature is lidat. The cat approached him, he will wan approached the cat. He's nt the timid kind like miki. But i'm worried cookie will b attacked. Despite the uncle trying 2 stop the cat frm approachin us, the cat still keep walking forward. Tat time i reali panic, seeing the cat keep cuming n nt retreating aft my mum n the uncle try scared the cat. Most of the time the stray cats wun go too near to u if u scared it away but tis cat reali exception.

The cat kept cuming towards us. I'm reali veri scared. As cookie isnt tat light, n he kept struggling n wanting 2 approached the cat for a fight. I had a hard time trying 2 hug him up. I kept pulling on his leash n trying 2 pull him up bt he is real heavy. I gt 2 bend dwn 2 hug him and at the mean time b wary of the cat. Finally i hugged cookie in my arms. While seeing the cat still a small dist away, i tried u-turn back 2 whr my mum was.

But while i was walking backwards, i felt a sudden pain in my left leg. To my horror, ITS THE CAT!!!!! THE CAT WAS HUGGING MY LEFT LEG AND BITTING MI!!!!

At tat moment, i reali panic. I'm totally lost. I duno wat 2 do. So i kept shouting "PAIN!!!" Then the uncle quickly use a stick or duno wat 2 hit it away. And OMG!!! I saw several streams of blood flowing dwn my leg n 2 my toes n stained my slippers!!! I reali shivered in fear. I duno wat 2 do n my leg reali gt no more strength. I cant walk. I stood there in shock n fear waiting 4 help. But the cat didnt gif up, she went 1 big round n continued 2 make the 2nd attack. But is mainly jus scratches tis time. The 1st time is reali BITE!!! The moment i saw the cat bite mi i knew, gone case le. Surely it wun b jus minor injuries.

Its reali the 1st time i c myself so badly injured. Blood kept ooshing out like tap water. The more i walked, the more blood flow dwn. And i could feel my slipper getting wet. Its nt water, its my blood!!! My whole body was shivering. But i didnt cry. I knew i did the rite ting. If i didnt save cookie on time, he would b badly injured n could b blind too. So i sat dwn while the uncle took tissue n water 2 clean my leg n stop the blood frm flowing wif plasters. I dun even dare look at hw serious the injuries were tat time. I onli rmb its veri bloody. There's still blood stains on the void deck. Tat was onli 5 plus but clinic open onli open at 6.30pm. So i gt 2 bear the pain n wait.

And its onli when i stood up 2 walk then i feel the pain. While i look at my leg, i cant help crying. My heart hurts more than the pyhsical pain. ITS MY LEG!! From a scarless leg, bcum lidat. I reali felt veri devastated. At tat moment i reali hope all these r jus a nitemare. I WANT TO WAKE UP NOW!!!

Y nobody stop such ting frm happening 2 mi??? Is tat retribution?? But i didnt hate cats in the 1st place. In fact i pity them alot too. But y mus i b attacked by cat??

The way hm was tough but i still staggered hm in pain. Mum 1st brought cookie miki hm while i sat at my blk void deck waiting 4 her 2 cum dwn n helped mi hm cos there's no other ple at hm. While waiting dwnstairs, lots of ple walked past n looked at my bloody leg. The moment i looked at it, i cant help crying. So i sat there crying like a little poor ger but none came 4ward 2 ask if i nd help, they jus looked. Bt its ok. Mum came n helped mi home. I endured the pain n went dwn the stairs step by step n at the meantime crying non stop. Bt all these tears r frm my heart. My heart is crying. It is bleeding in pain.

Had my dinner n waited 4 clinic 2 open. Luckily, when we were at the void deck, these malay couples were veri nice. The man is a taxi driver n was supposed 2 return hm bt on seeing my leg lidat, he offered 2 drive mi 2 the clinic which is jus nearby. 1st time had a free taxi ride. At the clinic, those receptionists were so curious wat happened 2 mi so mum told them. Seeing mi in such pathetic state, hu will feel nice. Of cos all felt veri pitiful for mi. But the moment i heard my mum repeat wat happened, i cant help crying again. So if she kept repeating, i will keep crying.

The doc c le still tot i'm attacked by many cats. But its jus 1. A veri fierce 1. She wanted mi 2 call up spca bt i refused cos i knew if the cat is caught by spca, it will definitely b dead. I dun want to c tat. Its a life too. Plus the cat bcum so wild is cos she jus gave birth so its her nature. If get caught le, the kittens will b so poor ting. Haiz~ I can onli blame myself for being so suay. But to protect cookie, i'm willing 2 sacrifice. While the doc was cleaning my wound, i cried like nobody biz. Tink outside ple all can hear tat. Mus b tinkin wats happening inside. My heart was beating real fast n my whole body shivering n cramped.

Its extremely painful. Worse than period cramps n gastric cramps. The 1st round of clean up is real painful. I closed my eyes n dare nt look at it. Kept tinkin tis is a nitemare. Wak up will b fine le. But till nw, y havent sumbody wak mi up?? Doc kept askin mi 2 tak deep breathe n relax if nt i may knock out. So slowly i tried. Bt upon tinkin of my leg suddenly bcum lidat cos of a cat, im so heartbroken. Tears r all frm my heart. Imagine ur leg bcum lidat. Esp for gers. If all these bcum scars n nv recover, guess i can throw away all my dresses n skirts. Cos of a stray cat, it cost my mum 84 bucks of medical fees. Reali suay. Had a vaccine too cos stray cats r poisonous plus the cat jus gave birth.

See those pics i posted ytd n u will noe. Its so er xin till i dun dare look at it. Esp the wound at the back of my leg. Its horrible to be seen. Any1 hu saw it, felt so painful for mi. From now on i'm gona hav cat phobia n tat blk phobia. Nt gona walk tat way animore. N shall shun cats like i shun cockroaches.

Aniwae dear helped mi made a complaint 2 the Yishun Town Council n they gt no choice bt 2 do sth cos my dear threaten 2 make it worse if they dun. He took half day leave 2 visit mi. From his face, can c tat he felt veri heartpain 4 mi. Just like if the cat attacked cookie, surely i will seek revenge. Tats aso y my dear is doing tat nw. Cos he dote mi alot. Just like i dote cookie. Aniwae nw i jus wish tat my leg will b fine. The injuries wun leave scar. Tats wat i reali hope for now. The rest abt the stray cats issue, i dun wish 2 pursue animore. I will jus leave it as it is. My dear wan pursue, will let him b. As long as it doesnt concern mi. Since its nt the 1st case of cat attack here.

Now i had prob bathing, walking, moving my leg, slping too. Haiz. Had slping pills frm the doc bt still cant slp in peace, kept waking up often cos the pain is jus too extreme. I cant move my leg, i cant turn here n there n cant cover wif blanket. Still nd put a pillow under my feet cos there's injuries at the bac of my leg n its bleeding too. Cant lie dwn as normal. But when i woke up in the morn, there's several blood stains on my bedsheet.

Bath aso diffi but cannot dun bathe 2dae cos ytd nv bathe le. So 2dae die die mus shower. Took 1 hr 2 bath. Took a chair 2 sit dwn n bath. N my left arm had a vaccine ytd so still abit numb 2dae. 2 words - "Poor me" Haiz. Now the knee joint is real painful. Worse than ytd cant walk properly. Nd support 2 walk. Guess cos the cat bite too deep in. Reali hurts. Cant bend my leg, cant sit on floor, cant squat. Haiz. Pain pain. I jus hope tml the pain will b lessen. Haiz~~~~~ Guess i nd 1 mth 2 rest. Cant go out now. So ple, dun bother 2 ask mi out.

i will never let you go;

7:21 PM





Monday, July 23, 2007

Wake me up when its over...

Bitten by a cat for saving Cookie. Accident happened at 5 plus. Marks on my right leg. Minor onli. More to come below.



All these r injuries on my left leg. From a no scar leg bcum lidat. My heart hurts more than physical pain. Dont even want look at my leg now. See for urself. More details nxt time, my arm numb aft the injection.















After seeing doc. Looks like its more serious than before.


















i will never let you go;

10:48 PM





Thursday, July 19, 2007

Stubborn Taurus

I WANNA GET OUT OF THIS SICKENING HOME!!

Everyone's tinkin i'm enjoying my life, slacking so happily but hu noes i'm nt happi at all. Perhaps i shd sae i was happy b4 bt not NOW! I expected july to be a horrible mth bt didnt noe its tat bad. I love the peaceful night bt nt the day. Every night when i go 2 slp, hw i wish the day wun arrive, hw i wish i could slp thruout n nv wak up. Now the moment i wak up, i fear the continuous nagging bt i expected tat 2 happen. I knew i cant escape it. Sumtimes i wish i'm deaf, cant hear aniting..........

Working is what i reali hate. Guess nobody loves working too, other than the MONEY. Everyting is all abt MONEY. If onli i'm nt born in this world.....

Now that i'm being forced to go out n work, it makes mi hate working more. But what can i do?? I cant do aniting else except to reali go work. Gona send resume latr n quickly go work. Perhaps i shd find a 7 days job. Work everyday, morn to night. Dont want c mi slackin everyday at hm, fine lor. I shall ask boss for ot on wkends too. Best is cum hm jus for slp then nxt day wak up early go work. Since tats wat every1 wanted. Earn money wat. I'm stubborn i noe but Taurus is lidat. But i aso cant sacrifice my dear. Haiz....... Its tiring.

i will never let you go;

3:35 PM





Monday, July 16, 2007

~The Different Types of Girls~

HARD DISK GIRLS:
She remembers everything.

FOREVER RAM GIRLS:
She forgets about you, the moment you turn her off.

WINDOW GIRLS:
Everyone know that she can't do a thing right, but none can live without her.

SCREENSAVER GIRLS:
She is good for nothing but at least she is fun.

INTERNET GIRLS:
Difficult to access.

SERVER GIRLS:
Always busy when you need her.

MULTIMEDIA GIRLS:
She makes horrible thing look beautiful.

CD-ROM GIRLS:
She is always faster and faster.

EMAIL GIRLS:
Every ten things she says, eight are nonsense.

VIRUS GIRLS:
Also known as "wife''. When you are not expecting her, she comes, install herself and uses all your resources. If you try to uninstall her, you will lose something but if you don't try uninstall her, you will lose everything.......


true???

i will never let you go;

3:05 PM





Friday, July 13, 2007

PEACE IS ALL I ASK FOR.

ARGH!!! STOP NAGGING MI ABT JOB!!! DONT NAG WILL DIE AR? IF I WAN GET A JOB, I WILL GET IT MYSELF. STOP RUSHIN MI. WHO LOVES WORKING, TELL MI. AND ITS NOT LIKE I'M USING UP UR MONEY. I DIDNT GET A CENT FRM U NOW. SO JUST SHUT UP AND LEAVE MI ALONE. THX

AND NYP'S WENDY LAM, LISTEN UP!! STOP BEING A BUSYBODY AND STOP CALLING MI!!! I'M NOT APPRECIATING YOUR PAID CONCERN!!!

WHO SO HAPPENED TO KNOW HER, HELP MI TELL HER THIS STRAIGHT INTO HER EARS, ITS NONE OF HER BUSINESS! I'M NO LONGER AN NYP STUD, SO JUST GET OUT OF MY AFFAIRS!

NO MATTER HW MANY CALLS U ARE GONA MAKE, IF I DONT FEEL LIKE ANSWERING, THERE'S NO WAY I'M GONA ANS IT AND I HAV MY RIGHTS NOT TO ANSWER ANY CALLS THAT I DUN FEEL LIKE. THERE ISNT ANY LAW SAYING I CAN'T DO THAT. AND IF SO ACCIDENTALLY I ANS THE CALL, I CANT PROMISE I WUN B RUDE TOO.

DONT TEST MY PATIENCE.

EVERYDAY HEARING THE WORD JOB IS ENOUGH!!! ITS GETTING ON MY NERVES!!! I HAD ENOUGH!!!!! PEACE IS ALL I ASK FOR.

i will never let you go;

8:55 PM





Singapore PM's son gets army rebuke for e-mail gaffe

This news getting hot in many forums n blogs. I jus heard it ytd n 2dae its on news. Looks like its gona b a hot news for these few days.


i will never let you go;

6:50 PM





Meet up wif sec sch frens; Catch Harry Potter 5

I'm bac but wif no change of template YET. Ha. Thats cos there's some minor changes i nd 2 get my dear 2 settle for mi as his IT skills r so much betta n he is more experienced. Hee. But he is bz n tired tis wk, so shall wait. Aniwae, i shall blog last 2 days of entries tog in 1 entry 2day.

Firstly is the meetup wif my sec sch frens on Wednesday, 11th July 2006

It was great. Its been so long since we last met up. Esp the guys. Its been a long long time since we last seen each other. Quite abit of changes wif sum of them.

SQ still as white as ever n she had a new hair style but i tink is cos we nv meet up aft her haircut cos its nt tat she jus had the haircut recently. Ha. And she wore makeup. Ha. Big ger le. Mus noe hw 2 put makeup.

Mic still as black as ever perhaps cos of her white specs (makes her look dark Ha) n her HAIR! Ha. Its kind of like dry. I tot it gt burnt. Ha. Jking lar.

SQ & Mic still as crappy as ever. Ha. Like many yrs nv see each other lidat.

Sheanee still as gentle as the previous times we met up. Ha. Getting more n more femine. Even gt approached by model agency in orchard road. Ha.

Gikian & Hongbin looked so MUSCULAR! So diff frm last time. No longer boys bt men. Riding bikes sumore. Ha. HB still gt approached by the media. But duno is for which tv program. Ha. Askin him abt stupid qns. About hw many online pals he has n another qn which part of the ger will u 1st look at. Face, Boobs or Butts. Ha. The qn is so wuliao lar. Ask such silly stuffs. Then gikian was saeing, shd look at the butt 1st. Purposely walked behind of the ger to see her butt. LOL.

Tingxian looked kind of thinner. His baby fats like no longer available. Ha.

We went orchard cos sheanee wan do her shopping. But ended up none of us bought aniting. Went crown prince hotel swensens for sum snacks. Mainly cos our fren, tx is working there. Its been 3 yrs n he's still working there. Sq, tx n i used to work there tog bt ended up sq n i quit aft a day whereas tx remained. Cos he's working there, those guys buay zi dong, esp the hb, purposely ordered an earthquake which he expects 2 b FREE.

We ordered fries, fried mushrooms, 2 floats (1 for sq 1 for mi) n earthquake which shd add up 2 like 50 bucks bt tx onli counted the cost of fries n mushrooms on the bill which added up to onli 12 BUCKS!! The rest was FOC!! I'm so guilty lar. 1st time eating w/o paying. I've already took out my money intending 2 pay for my treasure island float bt then i didnt noe he nv counted tat in sumore when he was at the counter keying in for the bill, his manager was jus BESIDE! Wonder if he will get scolded. But he consoled us tat he dun mind they fired him cos he's goin 2 quit soon. Ha.

THANKS TING XIAN!!


2ndly - Our 1000th day anniversary on Thursday, 12th July 2007

Ytd was our 1000th day anniversary. Our 1st 1000th day. Didnt hav ani plans hw 2 celebrate bt jus nice it was the launch of the movie "Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix". So we celebrated it wif Harry. Ha. It was a nt bad show thruout bt the ending was abit too abrupt. I didnt noe its goin 2 end lar. Still tot theres another 30 min or so to go.

The theatre was fully packed wif 90% kids which includes those sec sch studs. Actually i kind of predicted it cos the slot is 2.30pm so surely alot of sch studs. While queuing 2 buy our nachos combo, there's many grps of kids queuing up n i knew i was right. Wat we feared was the theatre will b veri noisy durin the show cos of those kids n here's wat happened in the theatre.

1stly, these 4 AI-Ahamad Ibrahim Sec Sch(i guess) gers sat on our seats. Dear bked the tickets online so we had the last row "Q". So i told the gers "Are you sure u r in the right seats???" They hesitated awhile, then started 2 move their butts. Slow. Already in the wrong seats still wan 2 tak so long to think. So they moved over to the opp row "Q" n i realised those grp of ple all sat in the wrong seats. Cos when the 4 gers shifted over, those few rows of occupants over there all stand up n shifted. So messy.

2ndly, an idiot in there (or maeb sum idiots) was playin wif his laser. In the midst of the show, we kept seeing laser beam on the projector screen. Wanted 2 see who's the culprit bt then couldnt find n it wasnt tat irritating so still alrite wif mi.

Nxt is the ting tat reali irritate mi. Those 4 AI gers tat sat on our seats previously were making so much noise over there. They had been chattering non stop n laufing thruout the whole movie. There's several times I gt so irritated n wanted 2 go over n tell them 2 shut their mouths up. But didnt. Cos sum ple make the sound "SHH". The gers quiet dwn for awhile n start tokin again. Finally i gt so disturbed n reali wanted 2 stand up n walked over bt dear stopped mi. So i nv go n plus its aso near to the ending.

But i reali cant endure. I'm so desperate 2 vent my anger. Wear sch uni still nv behave urselves. So when we went out of the theatre, i happened 2 see those 4 gers outside. Without hesitating, i pretended 2 say 2 my dear while i walked past them. I purposely said loudly, "Duno y sum ple pay 8 bucks buy tickets cum in just 2 chit chat." I duno if they heard it bt if dun hav then too bad. Dear was like smiling at mi. Ha. He mus b tinkin, y i lidat. Bt reali lor, sum ple nd sum scoldings from the public. No proper manners.

Morale of the story is that nxt time mus watch slots tat kids cant catch it. Its reali irritating when u r in the same theatre wif sum inconsiderate ple.

i will never let you go;

5:19 PM





Monday, July 09, 2007

Nth much

Well ple, i'm in the midst of changin my blog template. So probably will blog aft i change the template. And vien, when is ur nxt off day?? Veri long le lor. Shd arrange for a meetup soon. Let mi noe asap. Hee. Thx

i will never let you go;

3:24 PM





Thursday, July 05, 2007

Generation Gap

ARGH!!! I'm gona go mad 1 day. I won't be surprised if 1 day i appear in the lunatic hm or suffered frm depression.

Y is there tis ting called generation???? If there arent different generations, then there wun hav generation gaps.

I realli dun understand y she cant try to understand us or at least try to listen to our generation advise. I've already tried my best, telling her not to nag so much, its nt doin ani gd 2 her n plus its nt effective at all. This is the 20th century, its no longer in their 80s. Nowadays, teens like us long for freedom & fun. We hate the "nagging bible". Esp aft we came hm frm outside. Its like making us sick of coming hm. On the tot of having to listen to her naggin everytime we come hm, its already making us sick. Who doesnt want to have a happy family?? The warmth from the family??? But she onli noes how to nag non stop everyday. YES, its EVERYDAY!!!!! 365 days a yr. She's nt tired, we r lor. Though she's nt naggin at mi, but as a 3rd party listener, its already making mi sick.

Don't understand y they nt sick of naggin everyday. Now that i hav grown up, i kind of think more. I understand her plight. Which mum dun wan their children to do well in their studies & hav a bright future etc??? I understand that. But, its too late to do the naggin now. It will onli cause reverse effect. She cant c it but i can. Cos afterall my age gap wif my bro is onli 3 yrs diff. I understand wat the teens wan. Which teen will love to stay hm & study everyday?? Tell mi. Other than mi, reali, i dun tink there's a 2nd 1 hu can stay hm everyday & study. I nv sae i like studying but i understand its a must for mi 2 study when i nd to. Thats y i do so. Somemore, if its a guy, definitely he wun love hm so much. Which guy loves staying at hm everyday??? Tell mi. PLus, my bro is such an active guy, how will he stay at hm everyday??? N plus nd to listen to her nag non stop. Its fustrating lar.

My bro dun like studyin its a fact. Its his character. Its already too late to change it. Keep naggin aso no use. Will onli make him sick when he c the bk. Cos in his mind, he will b tinkin of mum's nagging. Since its nt working her way, she shd try the other way round. Which is jus let him be. Or listen to my advice. Tok 2 him nicely. Dun keep nagging. But she jus cant listen. I told her not to keep naggin at him cos its no use. Its been so many yrs. But there isnt ani improvement, y shd she nag. But ended up i turned up to get scolded. Sae ya lar, everyting aso her fault. She duno hw to teach. Precisly. If she is more open in her tinking n willing to sit dwn n try understand to our needs, perhaps tings wouldnt b so tough nw.

I'm jus trying to help. Hopefully she will hav a betta life n bro wun hate hm but she cant c it. So stubborn. Then ytd bro mentioned abt his sch teachers providing sum extra tuition for them, she understood it as onli for him. Then keep saeing, "So u mus b veri lousy lar? Thats y onli u gt it." Argh~ y she so stupid. Its for "THEM", for those weaker studs. Not jus him. But she jus want to tak it tat its for him. Fine. 2dae bro didnt went for the remedial, he came hm. So as wat i expected, bro gt scolded lor. She nag n nag non stop. Sae wat, "Already veri lousy le still dun wan go......" I listen till sianz. But tings were fine aft tat. Cos bro aso used to her nagging le. Dun even wan tok much to her.

Then an hr ago, bro told her tat the sch set tis new rule. Late comers will receive detention after sch. Then again, mum understood it as the rule is set for him. Wat the....... I hear le aso cant help voicing out for bro. I jus made sum casual remarks like,

To bro: "Aiyo, nxt time u dun tell her such ting lar."
Bro replied: "Ya, nxt time i dun wan mention aniting le"
Mum said in a veri unhappi tone: "Ya la ya la, wat she saes is rite." She even said i teach him bad.
I replied in my normal tone: "I'm nt teachin him bad tings lor. I'm jus saeing wat our gen tink."
Then she angry le. Said wat "Ya lar, ur gen is rite, our gen is wrong. Need mi then will call mi mummy.........."

I aso sick of toking bac. Cos the more we tok, the more angry she will be. Everytime we tok abt gen thinkin, then she will b unhappi. I'm jus raising sum issues we shd discuss & solve. But she dun c my pt. Forever its lidat. Everytime ended up its my fault. Like i wanted to. Its bcos now, i'm getting matured, more sensible. I tend to c tings more clearly as a 3rd party. I'm jus trying to help. But ended up, she's alwas angry over it. Wat the.....

Help!! What to do???? Reali tot of getting a counsellor. Guess we reali nd 1. Cos she's alwas not listening to us. But when others tell her, she will listen n tink wat they said is right.... Wat the.....
Who r we then?? As if we r harming her. I'm reali getting sick... Gona go mad..... N now, she's nt jus nagging on my bro, bt on mi aso. Cos its grad time nw. Time to get cert, which means time to go work. ARGH!!!! I told her i will settle myself. N yet she's alwas listening to other frens of her. Tellin her i mus faster go get a job. Alot of ple finding. Stupid frens of her. Who saes i cant get a job?? Is i wan or dun wan. If tis goes on, i'm gona go find 2 jobs. Morn n nite. Best is early morn go out, late nite then cum hm. Even if i collapsed, i dun tink she will care too. In her mind, nth is more impt than money wat. She thinks money is the most impt, fine, i work lor. Find lots of jobs then gif her all my money. Thats wat she wans wat. MONEY!!

Everybody's eyes onli hav money. No money will die ar. Die, die lar. Live in tis world is so stressful... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will never let you go;

9:00 PM





SHOPPING AGAIN!!

Its grad day ytd, & as wat i said, i wun go & indeed i nv go. Its just a grad day, wats there to be proud of rite?? Not like i'm the only 1 to grad frm NYP. So ytd, i spent my day out wif my dear. SHOPPING!!! Ha. Was actually meetin him 4 lunch at orchard n aft tat went walk ard since still early. But hu noes, ha, my dear is so daring. He nv return to work. Ha. Ended up we went shopping till like 4 plus. Its kind of weird sia, cos he's wearing formal. So during the lunch break, everywhr aso hav office ple walking ard so he's nt the onli 1. But then, slowly, the office crowd bcum lesser n lesser till totally none. And it means lunch break is over. But my dear is still out wif mi shopping. LOL. Bought a bag. Yea, finally. Ha.

Walked frm cineleisure, to heren, to takashimaya, to wisma, to far east & bac to orchard mrt station. We kept walking round n round inside far east, just to look 4 my bag. Ha. Tink we walked round at least 5 times. I'm fussy i noe. Ha. But mus buy sth i like mah. Don't like buy 4 wat rite?? So aft many rounds of lookin, finally found a nice-lookin bag. Its silver in color. Nice, veri strikin aso. Ha. Nite time cross the road, drivers sure can c. LOL.

So aft shopping, we went to amk hub n continue shopping. Lol. Ha. Saw cherry there. She's so focus in her paper bag folding that she nv saw us standing outside her working place. And as usual, tis cherry keep pestering mi to buy the stuffs from the shop. But luckily gt a customer so we faster shoo. Ha.

K lar, gtg hav my dinner... bye

i will never let you go;

5:50 PM





Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Grad day tml

Hot Hot HOT!!! The weather is so hot these few wks. I missed the rain. The hot weather makes mi so uncomfortable. Sianz~ I c the weather aso dun feel like going to go get my necklace today. Maeb tml if i'm goin out then go get it. Heard that tml is nyp SIT grad day. I didnt noe sia. Or shd sae i nv try 2 rmb. Is bcos my dear told mi then i noe abt it. Ha.

Everytime i get nyp letters, i will jus open n roughly c wat isit then either throw it away or dump it sumwhr. Ha. Nv reali go read wats inside. I dun c the pt of reading aniwae. Esp the newsletter. Aft tml i'm officially grad, no longer a nyp stud. So nyp will b none of my biz. Hopefully the staffs will also stop calling mi. Irritating staffs. I want work anot is my biz. So kpo for wat. Hands & legs r mine, nobody can force mi to work if i dun wan. But i tink the staff aso dun dare to call mi. Ha. Cos last time a lecturer called mi, i replied veri negatively n rudely. After tat call, the lecturer onli sent mi email but nv called mi. Ha. Thats so much better.

Aniwae, since tml is grad day. I shall go find my dear 4 lunch. Ha. Cos his bro will b goin bac sch so i shall do the opp way. Ha. Go find my dear 4 lunch. Hee. Anibody wans go orchard shopping tml??? Can ask mi since i would be in orchard. Ha. K, time for my entertainment. Gotta find stuffs to entertain myself nw. Ha. bye~

i will never let you go;

3:30 PM





Monday, July 02, 2007

Time to exercise!!

AW!! My arm muscle hurts... & my legs muscle hurts abit too. Got to minimise movements. Ha. Cos ytd had a game of badminton wif my dear. Was extremely tired after the game. Long time nv touch badminton or shd sae long time nv do exercise. Ha. So now my muscles are protesting. Not cos i'm old lor but cos its been really really long time i realli exercise my body other than the poly napfa test in feb. Ha. Sometimes i did some skipping at home bt then most of the time i 4gt abt skipping. HAHA.

Now my body is too used to home environment. 24 hr under fan/aircon environment. So when i go out under the hot scorching sun & stuffy weather, my body cant tak it. I will feel so sick & giddy. Thats also y my dear dun allow mi 2 go out alone. If i'm out alone, i got to make sure my hp is in full batt mode. Ha. Cos he will keep msging or calling till i meet up wif my frens so as to make sure i'm safe. Thats my dear. Ha.

So perhaps now mus do more exercise. Planned to have our nxt match of badminton tis coming wkend. Ha. During the wkdays, i shall rmb to skip then. I rmb last time when i was in pri sch, mum alwas told mi to skip before i bathe n eat. So when i reached hm after sch, i got to skip at least 100 times then go bathe then can eat. I will alwas rmb that. Guess i shd b grateful to her, cos if nt for her, maeb i wun grow so tall now. Who knows rite??? Thats my grow tall tips. Ha.

Went out on sat wif dear for shopping but didnt get a bag. Only gotten a pair of shoes frm DMK. Those shoes r comfy. At least alot betta than C&K. Hurt my feet like mad. Wanted to get a bag bt couldnt find ani nice bags. Who knows where gt nice bag??? Can intro mi.

Everywhr was so crowded during the wkends. So many cars on the road & so many ple in the malls. Want tak cab aso mus use snatch de. Ha. We waited so long for a cab but couldnt get 1. It was either "stolen" away from us or we gif to ple. Think we r too nice thats y cant get a cab for like 30 min. And the weather was so so hot. Called for a cab bt the line was engaged. Ended up my dear finally get smart. Ha. He bcame the kiasu 1. Went right infront to the cab & waited for the passengers to alight then he hurriedly told the driver whr we going. Ha. He said cannot be too nice le, else tink sun set aso cant get a cab. Ha. True

And ya, i'm so happy that my necklace can be fixed but nd pay 10 bucks to fix it. Lucky, & tml i shall go collect it. Yippie~ K, Gotta go find games to play now. I'm bored. Ha. Home alone now. Mum & Dad went shopping, big bro bk in le, then small bro went dating wif his gf. Ha. Left mi alone wif 2 dogs. Lonely~

i will never let you go;

4:00 PM