wat shd b the rite way??

to sae?? or

not 2 sae??

sae le end up will cause unhappiness 2 the both of us... thus, the start of cold war....

bt...

if dun sae, the unhappiness will b within mi n of cos i wun b able 2 pretend n sound happi n he will ask y i sound so moody, n if i dun tell him, he will tink tat he is useless n end up both of us will still b moody..... thus, the start of cold war.....

it seems like 2 sae n 2 keep numb makes no diff....

then wat shd i do??

**lost**

i admit i'm very petty, very bad tempered at times, very stubborn, n i jus cant stand ple tokin/scolding fiercely or loudly 2 mi, i will get unhappi n at times i may jus cry... even though sumtimes, u may b speaking abit louder than usual, abit unhappi tone, bt then 2 mi, i may already tak it tat u r fierce... get wat i mean??

i noe i veri "xiao jie"... i noe it myself... i noe i veri demanding at times bt tats my character... i'm born tis way.... born 2 b so bossy, so princess... wants ple 2 dote on mi n pamper mi n nt shout or scream at mi....

recently, been tinkin alot... esp 2dae... keep tinkin of wat i wan achieve, wat i wan in life, wat i wan 2 b, wat hav i learn 4 the 3 yrs in poly.... bt then, the conclusion is tat i duno wat hav i learn in poly... i find tat i hav wasted 3 yrs in poly n yet learning nth regardin IT stuffs... duno programming, duno debuggin, duno com maintenance, duno com parts, duno hw 2 do configuration, duno aniting regarding IT....

these few daes, my frens keep askin mi qns on programming cos they feel tat my programming is gd... askin mi hw 2 do tis n tat, how 2 debug tis error... bt then in conclusion, i cant do at all... even simple error, i spend so many hrs lookin at it aso cant fig out... bt others cum debug, 1 look at it, they noe whr's the error n immediately they can solve it....

hw stupid i am...

still call myself an IT stud.... rubbish... tink i dun even deserve the dip cert....